Good and Bad

Why now?? That is something I have been asking myself today. Glen's mom called this morning saying that Matthew was coughing a lot and not breathing very good. Glen hurried home and took him to the hospital. They did some breathing treatments that seemed to help but he was still having some problems so they want him to stay the night. They think he probably has asthma but they won't diagnose it yet. We are supposed to go the pediatrician who I guess can make that assessment. I have been such a baby about being away from Matthew anyway and worrying about him being so confused. I am here alone right now wishing I could go visit Matthew since he is not that far away but I doubt they would let me. So I am just being an emotional mess. Taylor is doing good for the most part. She has been kind of gagging and sucking air in and spitting up yucky stuff that didn't get cleared out since I had a C-section. She was such an on angel night number one, but last night she cried a lot and Glen and I started thinking we might have another colicky baby like Matthew was. She is sleeping a lot more today so we hope that will be more the norm. Nursing is also killing me but Taylor seems to do it right and has a great suck. Too great! I guess you just stick through the pain a few weeks and then it will be better I hope. But enough complaining; we will get through all of it and I am just so thankful to have two beautiful children that I love so much. Taylor is so beautiful and I just love to stare at her. Having a baby is such a neat experience. Glen is such a cute dad and is so sweet and helpful. I am also feeling really good for the most part so I am very grateful for that. I love being a mom and am very excited to be at home with Taylor, Matthew, and Glen.

Toledo Hospital, Day 1 cont'd

Hi Everyone!
So, we are all back in the room together and things are going great. Taylor is quiet (that's different), sleeps a lot (also a change), and is even learning to nurse okay. So really, I don't know what to do with myself.
We had a nice visit from Mom (Lau) and Matthew, and he seemed very confused and quiet at first, but then had a lot of fun pushing baby Taylor's "box"(her plastic crib on a cart) around, telling her not to cry and talking about how she sleeps a lot. Apparently he has been quite the trooper at home (or my mom is a really good liar), so great job Matthew! It looks like he will make a good big brother.

Here are some more pictures, as promised.


I knew girls were trouble. Look, she's already showing her bare midriff!

Wow, hair done and makeup on? Looking good on delivery day!

Notice how excited she is to see me.

"Look Gram, Baby Taylor's hat!"

The whole family!

She has Arrived!!

Yay for Taylor Jill Lau!!!

The stats:

-born 8:45 AM ET
-8 lbs. 12 oz.
-20 inches long
-lots of brown hair
-(and pretty darn cute if I do say so myself)

other details:
We got to the hospital at 6:00 AM (very early) and were ready to go by 8:00. The C-section went smoothly aside from some nausea, vomiting, intense pain, etc. Jill actually got to see the baby come out this time (Utah Valley needs to invest in a cool mirror like they have in Toledo!) We heard comments like, "Wow, she's big!" and "That's a big head!" which are the same things we heard when Matthew was born, so we were very pleased that she looked a little more lady-like, even if she still has quite the set of lungs.

more to come later...(she still has to get cleaned up)

JUST WAITING!!

No baby yet...and there is really only one day left for me to go on my own. Friday morning is the scheduled C-section so I am thinking that is probably what is going to end up happenning. I really am perfectly happy with that now. There are many reasons I wanted to have this baby vaginally but there are pros and cons both ways. I used to feel like I was missing out on something but most people I talk to think it sounds great to go through no labor pains, hemorrhoids, ect. I also think that part of it sounds great since I did have to go through labor with Matthew. I try not to worry about being in the hospital so long and away from Matthew because of the C-Section and also hope I will not be one of the few people who end up not being able to have very many kids because of too much scar tissue or whatever reason it might be because of having all C-Sections. Really I just want to get her here and have her be healthy. Last night I just started crying to Glen as my emotions at this point are a little crazy. Scared, excited, anxious, happy....I suppose it's a mixture of all of those. It is a huge change but I know it will be great and will make our little family even closer and happier. I can't wait to see what she looks like. I am still feeling really quite good and have enjoyed the last couple of weeks with Matthew. We have been trying to stay busy by going to play groups, walking group, the library, stores, the farmers market, and any place outside of the house. I probably should be taking it easy and napping but I get too bored. Glen's sweet mom is going to come out and help which I appreciate so much and it really makes me feel more calm about being away from Matthew. I have been cleaning like crazy lately. I even cleaned our very gross microwave and oven today which has never been done. Now I just need to pack a bag for the hospital and we are set. We will try to get pictures up as soon as we can since none of my family will be out right away. My sister Holly is flying out October 8th and my parents are coming in the middle of November for the blessing. I'm excited for those visits. So, here we go on another adventure. Let's hope that all goes well.

Hugs and kisses

Matthew has a lot of stuffed animals that he is very sweet with. He is always kissing them and wraps them in blankets. Hopefully he will be that sweet with the baby!

Twinkle Twinkle

School bus

At the start Matthew was saying "Justin on school bus too". He got a little confused one day when we saw the school bus outside and I told him that kids ride it to school. He started saying that Justin and Daddy ride the school bus. When I ask him where his daddy is he usually says Justin's car. Justin is in Glen's class he gives Glen a ride everyday.

Feel Better

When we first started giving Matthew his antibiotic he hated it and it was a struggle everytime. We started telling him that his medicine would make Matthew feel all better. After that he didn't fight us anymore and would say feel better everytime we mentioned his medicine.

ABC's

I have been trying to get a bunch of videos on here for awhile but for some reason it was not working. I tried to get them all on one video but that didn't work either. Maybe I'll put up a couple at a time. Matthew really trys to sing with us these days and it is amazing to me how much he remembers. He is such a fun little boy and I am so thankful for him.